The song explains the classic dynamics of an identity crisis: my own indeed. Role playing to try to figure out who I am: ex: change of hair color, wearing clothes far above my my career status. Ex:not allowing others to connect too closely for fear of abandonment, or abandoning them first.(I was abandoned by mother as infant and later in life.) Afraid to confront relationship problems in a constructive manner. Over reacting to thingy but ashamed of feelings later. Grad from college with no purpose or plan.